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Yesterday I did not post anything and I felt bad. Well I really was feeling bad after my post on gaming. I’m not sure why. I do know why, I felt bad about my video game obsession and purchases. I guess I need to backtrack some.
December 31, 2007 I decided to get serious about my family’s financial future. But the one thing about me is I tend to get very passionate about my project of the moment. I go full speed ahead and usually burn out and ditch that “project”. I have done this with sewing, scrap-booking, going back to school, redecorating, running a daycare and remodeling to name a few. And yesterday I was having a real bad case of writer’s block. Every post I started I ended up deleting. I just could not get my thoughts together. I decided it was time to take a break from my computer. I was getting sidetracked way too easily.
I am just sooo excited about working towards getting out of debt. And I really want to follow through and prove that I am serious. It is just so much great information and support on the internet I am not sure how to process it all. I am absorbing everything and I find it a little difficult to find my place in the debt community. On one hand I want to become super frugal and sacrifice to get out of debt like so many bloggers before me. On the other hand I do not want to become a cheapskate and deny my family any and everything that is not considered “frugal”. It is really hard to find balance and somewhat overwhelming.
Then mommy things had to get done, you know laundry, baths, washing and braiding 3 heads of hair, homework and the list goes on and on. Before I knew it I had a list of things I didn’t do. I didn’t post my dinners, update my other blogs and website, go through literally thousands of email, pick my make ahead and crockpot recipes, sort my coupons and you get the idea.
I started feeling bad because January is almost over and I did not complete all of my goals. Why am I so hard on myself? Why would I only focus on what I didn’t do instead of what I did do? I honestly could not think. I needed to do some good old fashioned brainstorming with a pen and paper. That was such a great idea! I just put everything on my mind on the paper and I feel a whole lot better.
I almost fell off the horse, but I caught myself. And I am glad I did because I honestly feel re-energized. I need to take baby steps and not be so hard on myself. Sometimes I am truly my worst enemy. I am in a much better place(mentally) than I was a year ago. I am a work in progress and I accept that.
That is why I felt guilty
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You should consider taking a breath and a step back. I thought I’d update my blog daily, and I found it didn’t work, 3 days during the week is about right. Those emails? You should take care of yourself first. That will give you the internal resource to be the mom and wife you want to be. The thousand strangers can wait, or can follow you on the blog if they want to offer advice. Goals are nice, but not if they make you miserable. The sunday (or any day) cookfest of 3 or 4 meals is to buy you time and save money during the week ahead, not to mean you failed if you didn’t do it one week.
(BTW – this past Sunday was turkey meatballs and pasta, with the soup recipe I posted as the ‘cookahead’. Just the one extra meal, but good quality family time.)
JOE
Thanks so much joetaxpayerblog. You definitely are right. I think i will start posting only 3 to 4 times a week. I do not know where I got it from to post everyday.