This may sound stupid but I thought the days were over that I had to deal with a broken heart. I have been with my husband over 17 years. But when Jazz came back from her camping trip in tears my heart was hurting. It hurt so much that she was so sad. She broke up with her boyfriend on this trip because he started liking another girl. Seeing her in that state took me right back to when I was young and dating. That was so long ago. When Jazz came home and my husband told me she could not stop crying I immediately took her in my bedroom and closed the door. All I wanted to do was make her feel better. I honestly could not stand it before I knew it I was crying. It wasn’t just all about her pain either. I was crying over how this made her feel about herself. She thought the other girl was prettier than her. She thought she was fat. She could not understand what was wrong with her. I think I was all over the place with my emotions. Jazz is beautiful and smart and funny and kind. I’m not just saying this because I am her mother. I just can not figure out why she feels this way about herself. Was I wrong to let her start dating? She is 15. I did not want her sneaking out to have a boyfriend. I was raised in a very strict household and I did a lot of sneaking around. Did I put her in the position to question her own self worth? I was almost at a loss for words. I just kept telling her she is smart. She is beautiful. There is nothing wrong with who she is.I don’t want her to live her life around a boy. Now I am confused. Do I say no to boyfriends for the time being and try to direct her attention elsewhere? I don’t want her to get hurt again. No one ever told me about this part.
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