14 years ago today

I married my best friend. I can still remember how anxious I was. It was such a big step to step. I wanted a small simple cermony. Jazz was just a year and a half. We bought our first house a few months earlier. I know, we did it backwards. It was not planned that way, that’s just how it worked out, lol.

That morning is still so clear in my memory. I could not think straight. For so many years I felt like I was not a wanted member in my own family. The simple fact that these people loved me and wanted me to officially become a part of their family was  unbelievable.  My mouth was super dry, no matter how much water I drank. Then the what ifs starting running through my mind. What if:

• I forget to say I do?
• He changes his mind?
• I trip over my own feet?
• Totally blank out?
• Throw up in his parents beautiful living room?
• I turn out to be a horrible wife?

I was shaking so hard on the inside, I don’t know how I was able to stand straight. For me the scary part was how much I loved my husband to be. He was always on my mind and in my heart. We had been through a lot while dating and I knew marriage would not be easy. But I also knew I would not want to be without him, ever!

 His quiet but strong personality and heart of gold are my favorite things about him. Plus it does not hurt that he loves me at my worst just as much as he does when I am at my best. We grew up together and I look forward to growing old together. That is a wonderful feeling

So today we have been married 14 years.  A lot of ups and downs, mistakes, arguments, laughs, joy and hard work. And I would not change any of it. Everything that has happened got us to where we are today. Who we are today.

Right now, in this moment, I could not be happier. I wish my husband a very Happy Anniversary and so many more to come.

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