games, Kids, Life

    Another game for family night

    The kids and I just finished a funny game of Memory. The reason it was so funny is because I have the worst memory in the world so I always lose horribly. SmileyCentral.comThe kids could not believe I could not remember a card I pulled over in my last turn. Nannah even accused me of letting K.K. win. That is so far from the truth. Nannah and K.K. have been the queens of this game for as long as I remember. Well, we started talking about adding a few more games to our collection. We need another Connect Four because all of the pieces are misssing and we need another Uno set because the kids lost the cards. We went online to check prices and found out about this cool version of Uno. I have never saw this before but it looks fun. The deck now includeds this card that says spin on it. If you get that card you get to spin the wheel (i love spinning wheels,lol) The wheel decides if you get to discard cards, pick up more or exchange hands with another player. I really like the idea of this because then the game is totally unpredictable and everyone has a fair chance of winning. I can’t wait to catch it on sale and give it a try.


    Losing the fight

    Today was not really a good day for me. I suffer from severe depression and social anxiety. That is why I am currently on Zoloft. The medication helps sometimes. Except when I forget to take it when I “think” I am better. There are times when I am loving life and everyone in it. Then there are the days like today. I just feel this immense sadness. It is sort of unexplainable. I think deep in my heart I knew that moment was coming. I have been having migraines nonstop for the last 2 weeks. Unfortunately doctors just write it off to a stress headache. Except there are times I can never get rid of it. At least it is not as bad as previous times. Those times were really bad. I felt no hope and was literally lost.

    At least this time I have blogging. It is like some type of outlet for me. This blogging thing is sometimes like a double edged sword. Because of my social anxiety I have really bad panic attacks when faced with social situations, so I don’t have any friends. But through blogging I meet some really cool and different people so I feel like I am not so “weird”. When I have those terrible times when I can not leave the house at least I can communicate with the world through blogging. But sometimes it is still hard. It is even harder to explain. Mix that with a little depression and then it is not so good. But blogging keeps me focused and I get a chance to help people and just be myself.

    Ok, I’m not sure why there are tears running down my face while typing this. Today is just a hard day for me. I don’t know. just feeling a little worthless and not good enough. not a good enough wife, mother, person. I finished all the laundry so that is good. It was about 11 loads or so. Sometimes blogging is so hard. There are so many good bloggers out there. I wonder do I have it in me. i have been thinking about just trying to get a job. but i am not sure if that will work out either. Sometimes life is just hard. I think it is even harder to find who you really are, inside. I know I want to be as honest and loving as I possibly can be. I don’t want to be who everyone else wants me to be, even if the real me isn’t good enough. I just want to be happy. I pray tomorrow will be better. So I’m off to take my medicine and hopefully get some sleep.


    MommyFest Party Intro

    Hi all you MommyFest Bloggers and welcome to my blog. So, I guess I need to introduce myself. Let’s see, I am a stay at hom mom to 3 girls (14,10, and 5) and 1 boy(8). I have been married almost 12 years (for some odd reason I keep thinking 13, lol). My hubby is my best friend in the world and we have been together for 16 years. I am addicted to blogging and video games. Just got Mario Wii for Mother’s Day. We have the original Nintendo, Playstation, Xbox, Wii, PSP, Gamecube, Gameboy Advance, and DS. I am a reality show junkie. Back in the day it started with Real World. Now I watch Top Chef, Making da Band, Run’s House, Survivor, Big Brother and the Amazing Race to name a few. I hate the outdoors but we live right next to a nature preserve because my DH and kids love nature. I have social anxiety disorder but blogging helps because I meet some really cool people.

    Thanks for stopping by and please leave a comment so I can visit your blog too. Have fun!!

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    What I’ve Learned as a Mom

    Wow, there are so many things I have learned in the last 14 years.

    • I can sleep without really sleeping. I always have one ear open. You know in case someone wakes up or falls out of bed.
    • I have developed “Mommy Hearing”. No matter where my kids are in or around the house I can hear everything they say. Especially when they are picking on each other or playing who can say the most digusting thing in the world.
    • That anything I say don’t do, my kids are guaranteed to do it or at least give it a good try!
    • That at least twice a day, one of my kids will be mad at me.
    • Kids can figure out passwords to unblock channels on satellite so pick something other than 1-2-3-4!!
    • My kids will repeat everything I say to everyone who should not hear it.
    • That my kids are really amazing and smart.
    • That I do have enough love in my heart for all these little monsters. lol.
    • That Toy Story 2 can make me cry.
    • That unconditional love does exsist.
    • That I can put someone before myself and not mind.
    • The baby of the family can be a bully.
    • That it is ok not be supermom, honestly.
    • Teenagers embarrass easily, unless they need a ride or money
    • Nothing is better than a hug or a I love you from your kids. It is one of the best feelings in the world!!